Lord I’ve had enough.
I’m up to here with this.
No one is listening anyway.
I’ll decide when you’re done.
No, listen to me … I’m weary.
Hear me out … I can’t do this anymore.
Focus on these words:
Lord please, I’m having trouble hearing that.
My Truth leads to your peace.
Use the faith I gave you.
I don’t know if you’ve been at this (above) spot, but I’ve visited here too many times.
This is a place where I’ve convinced myself that God isn’t paying attention to my situation.
Because if God were paying attention, I wouldn’t be in this mess (right?).
I measure advancement by wins. I don’t like losing. A loss means I didn’t win. Losing means I must have made some errors, some mistakes.
Losing is undeniable evidence that God is neglecting me (right?).
Did I say this? “I evaluate success by my wins.”
But what if I’m captivated by a lie?
What if God is trying to offer me a lesson in:
What if what God is trying to achieve in me a skill of faith?
Honestly, I don’t know if I can hear this idea because I’ve heard so many times that if God is truly with me everything will be sugar and spice.
How do I get to the place where I stop whining?
How do I get to the place where I’m free from the mud and muck of dependence on reasons and my five senses?
In more confident moments, it’s my guess that God is answering my prayer for maturity.
I do want to grow up. If I quit now, I’ll never grow up.
How do you see it?
What have I missed that’s right in front of me?
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