I was walking in the neighborhood trying to find the right words to say as I talked with God.
Lord when I ask to be more like you, what am I actually praying for? I mean, what am I really wishing for? What are my expectations if this prayer is answered? What are your expectations if this prayer is answered? Should these words even be prayed?
Well Lord earlier this morning I felt like I had a tiny glimpse of insight into what I was truly praying and I wonder if I am crazy to pray this prayer? I mean it seems ignorant on my part. What would it look like to be more like Jesus? I mean I’d be kinder and more compassionate, sure, but what about the other stuff?
GOD: I’d be a start, huh?
Yes but it seems like a reach. Could I endure the attention if I were more like you? When evil tempted me would I be able to resist as Jesus did? Could I endure the constant
- personal attacks,
- the ridicule,
- the rejection,
- the misunderstanding, or
- the contempt
that comes with being like you and still be patient, tolerant, and loving when face-to-face with such opposition?
GOD: It’s possible.
I’m sorry but I doubt I could do it. It couldn’t be done unless I willingly and willfully cooperated with your Holy Spirit. And what would that look like? Jesus? Is this a part of your expectation for me Lord—minus the crucifixion of course?
GOD: Why not?
Still I’m wondering, isn’t the cost too much and the price too high for me to pray these words? “Lord make me more like you.” Yet, isn’t this what you’re busy with—conforming me into the image of Christ?
GOD: You got it.
Okay but wouldn’t it be more honest to pray, “Lord Jesus I’m afraid of you, where can I hide so that you won’t find me?”
GOD: Where could you hide? I always know where you are.
Sometimes I wish you didn’t.
I came to a spot in working out my salvation where I felt I needed to be careful what I prayed for.
It seemed childish to pray for things that really didn’t matter in the big scheme of things.
Say for instance, a job promotion, or an open parking spot when I drove downtown for a possible jury selection, or that I could lose ten pounds after stuffing myself for weeks and weeks without worrying about consequences.
But then I thought: how do I mature in my faith if I don’t start by praying these things?
Certainly these things matter, too. But they don’t matter as much as growing spiritually. They matter but they don’t matter more than becoming like Jesus.
I even thought to myself,
- Did Jesus pray for a job promotion (maybe)?
- Did Jesus pray for a parking spot (maybe)?
- Did Jesus eat properly?
Probably. Though I remember reading that some called him a glutton and a winebibber.
Whatever, I recognize that help me to be more like Jesus is a good prayer.
It’s a good prayer because it makes me aware of my need for dependence on Christ instead of myself. In myself I’m broken and inadequate.
Jesus depended upon His Father didn’t He?
Hillsong Be Like You